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It's 10:30pm which means I cant sleep, crazy yes, but I tend to go to bed at 8. I am laying here in bed watching David Duchovny act, because big words, swearing and smart ass jokes make me laugh...although not currently out loud as Andrew is asleep on the other end of the phone and I don't want to wake him up. I am incredibly happy, and at the same time extremely sad. I just..don't know. My brain waves are currently switching quicker than Nicki Minaj's weave.

I know I am not leaving for good, and that I get to come back and visit. Sometimes, I just feel like I don't really tell you all what I think hehe so here ya go......

Kevin - Thank you. I have always wanted a brother. You are not only a great brother, but you make my sister happier then I have ever seen her. You would do anything for anyone, and not even think about yourself in the process, and I truly admire that. Never let anyone make you feel like you are a bad person, because you deserve better than they would have to offer anyway. I love you.

Wendy - As someone once said to me, "way to not fuck up" ;) I know since we have been kids you and I have fought each other, and found it hard to talk without wanting to stab the other...but in all honesty, I would never change it. You have turned into an amazing woman, and I am proud that you are my sister. You have taught me a lot, and you have a lot to give. Give yourself more credit, because you are strong, funny, and beautiful as hell. I love you.

Pamela - I don't think I can ever truly say how grateful I am to have you as my mother. I know you blame yourself for somethings, but you have no need to, I have never once blamed you for anything...except maybe crooked teeth. You have always given everything you could to us, and you have never stopped. You know pretty much all I have to say already. I love you.